But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness.”

2 Corinthians 12:9

Now, I’m going to ask for a little bit of blogger/preacher/I’m writing this to make my point and you’re not leeway. This thought came to me today as I was spending some time this morning with my great friend, sister, and mind-sharer, Danielle Endejan. As we were talking about life and the struggles and joys, she said something that struck me. She said that she hated that she was so stupid and that she wished she would just be able to get the things that God has shown her so she can move on. Right at that instant I had a gospel moment. We are God’s sheep and He wants to lead us. We get in trouble when we think we know the way and try to lead ourselves. Then we run into walls and fall off cliffs and stuff like that. The beauty in the falling is that He is always there to catch us. After He catches us, He gently points us back in the right direction. His delights in us even when we are stupid and continue to try and do our own thing. What I said to Danielle is that His brilliance is my greater in our stupidity. I know that I have done some stupid things in my lifetime in the name of helping people or being ‘that’ guy. You know, the helper guy that everyone comes to. There are a few times that I get this right, and it’s not because of anything I’ve done. It’s mostly because there are SO many times that I mess things up because I’m trying to work on my own power and I end up doing more harm than good…so I think. But sometimes those situations get turned around for good and then I realize that God just made himself look brilliant in my stupidity. I have had to learn that it’s okay for me to make God look brilliant. I’m not that smart. My knowledge of ANYTHING comes straight from Him. He put it there. He sustains it. I’m not that good of a songwriter. I’ve tried to do that on my own. I stink. But when I take the time to focus on what God wants to say through me, it generally comes out so much better. I am sooooo okay with that.

Are you able to take glory in your stupidity? Are you ready to embrace your inner sheep? What things have you done that were really stupid that God turned into something great? Are you willing to accept that it’s not about your amazing ability to do anything and that it’s waaaay more about how masterful and intricate the thoughts of God really are? That’s a big thing to let go of in your mind. I know it is because I struggle with it everyday. My brain partner Danielle struggles with it everyday. She is probably dealing with it right now as I type this at almost midnight on Friday. But it doesn’t stop God from being God. The question is whether or not you will let Him do His thing through you, or will you be stupid enough to keep trying to do it yourself?