I have been terribly busy lately and there is SO much going on right now. Generally that would be grounds for lots of good blogging material. And believe me, it is. I just haven’t had much time to sit down and do this. I don’t even know what to say at this point because it is all swirling around in my brain right now. Here’s what I have noticed in the past couple weeks. In order to attack the real problem, you have to settle in enough to figure out what the problem really is. Case in point: Friday night.

This past Friday night was The Perk:(the event) at Missouri Baptist University. They take the gym and turn it into an enormous coffee house and people perform and they give you coffee and food and it is a fun evening for current students as well as alumni. Anyway, I was there and performed a couple songs and got to see some friends that I hadn’t seen in a while. As is customary, I got my cup of coffee and began to walk around the room. Upon my first drink I realized that this coffee had some punch. So over the course of the evening I nursed this one cup of coffee. I never finished it. I finally got home around 1am and wanted to jump straight into the bed. I tossed and turned for a couple hours and got really frustrated. Around 3:30 I stopped for about 30 seconds. It was then that I realized that my heart was pounding out of my chest because I was so wired from that coffee that I started drinking at 10:30 the night before. I was thinking about taking some sleeping medicine because I was feeling some other “symptoms” as well. Once I slowed myself down, all I needed was to drink some water and start reading.

I was actually considering treating a condition that I didn’t even have because I hadn’t slowed myself down enough to see what the real deal was. As I thought about it later, I found that I was guilty of not slowing myself down enough to listen to what God had for me. Everyone talks about the passage 1 Peter 5:7 where it says “casting all your cares on him because he cares for you”. But there are 2 things that got overlooked by me because I wasn’t looking for myself. Verse 6 says “Humble yourselves therefore before the mighty hand of God…” That tells me that I have to slow down and shift my focus. We always think that we know what we want and need. As a result we go and try to take NyQuil when really all we needed was to sit down a second and drink a glass of water. Sometimes we jump into another relationship when we really need to stay single. Sometimes we buy that car when the one we had was more than adequate.

Like I said at the beginning, there is a lot going on right now and my hope is that in the near future I’ll be able to share some of it. In the mean time I need to sit back and process it all and make sure that I’m sharing what God wants me to share.