I must confess that I’m not exactly sure what this post is going to look like in the end. All I know is that I wanted to write something to get my thoughts out. There is so much swirling around up there and I just need to see it in print so maybe it will start making sense. Let’s see…

We have a baby coming! Holy cow! there’s a baby coming! There’s so much still left to do and we aren’t ready for it. Not only that, we are pretty sure that we won’t be able to travel together as a family once he gets here. So we’re making sure that his room looks great since he will be spending lots of time there. HA! But we are so excited to meet the little guy. I can’t believe the time is so close now. I don’t know what to think yet.

We are still job search and wondering…THAT’S why I wrote that up there. We are still wondering. Wondering what God has in store for us. We don’t know anything more than we’ve known in the past 19 months. We have met a ton of new, cool people and think they are all doing some really great things. At this point, for whatever reason, we haven’t been asked to join any of those works. Honestly, I’m scared out of my mind. Nothing has worked in so long and we’ve been so close many times. Even now, there are a couple things that look like they could work. One of them is something that we REALLY want to get excited about. It’s so hard to let go and do that. We’ve become so guarded in our hearts that we are afraid to let go of that. At this point we are just waiting to hear yes and THEN get excited. I don’t know if that’s right or not, but that’s where we are. Pray for the Walls family. We are really going through right now.

Even after the job thing finally settles itself, there are a myriad of issues that stem from not having a job for over a year. Lots of financial issues to attempt to tackle and things that need to be done to our house and vehicle, getting another vehicle….AHHHHH!! Life!!! It keeps going no matter what!

So that, my friends, is what I’m wondering. In other news, I’m still working on music in the factory (music nook in my house). Ideas keep flowing and I’m just waiting to get back to recording. Soon enough…

So I’ve joined this men’s Bible study and so far it’s been pretty good. We are currently reading through the book of Jeremiah. Last night we were talking through chapters 9-11. Now if you’ve ever read Jeremiah, you know you really have to dig to find something to talk about in those first chapters. Seemingly there’s not much there. However, as we started to dig, we saw a people who were creating their own idols to worship. We then noticed that God was doing his best to use Jeremiah to tell the people of Israel that their God was the one that created all the things they were using to create their own idols (Jeremiah 10).

We opened up an interesting conversation about if the people that were creating things didn’t feel like they were doing anything wrong because they were creating art. In today’s world so many things are thrown under the umbrella of art and therefore we must just have to ‘accept’ it as that. Interesting question I thought. So I thought I would pose this question to you, the readers of this blog. God has given us himself and it is our job to worship Him and give Him thanks for everything that He has done for us. That doesn’t leave us much time to create other things to worship. We have been given gifts that we can use to worship Him like music, art, writing and other things. But it was never His goal for us to then worship the things that we create. That’s my take. What’s yours?

I have to say that I have no idea what God is doing. Not that I haven’t known that before, but he isn’t doing anything now to make me know any time soon. So I have to reiterate that to myself. As I do that, I have to then look at how much he is continuing to do. First things first, I have no idea how we still have a house, but we do and God is sustaining that whole thing. I’m thankful for the friends God has given me. I finally think we are starting to connect with them. We’ll see how that goes. I also am thankful for our church community. Being a part of a community like that is great. Being able to settle in with true believers is really comforting. For all these things (and more) I’m totally thankful.

This one will be short, but I just wanted to challenge and encourage you all. I’m sure I’m not the only one going through hard times, and I’m sure I’m not the only one that is focusing more on the tough stuff than the God who handles it all. I just want to remind us all (myself included) to continue to look to the cross. Have a great Wednesday. I’m going to get back to job searching.

People always say “there’s so much I just don’t know where to start…” I’m going on record as REALLY not knowing where to start. There are so many things that have happened in my life over the past summer that I don’t know where to begin. So therefore, I’m just gonna jump right in. My disclaimer, this could be long…

First things first, I still don’t have a job. We’re going on 14 months now. This has been such a trying time for our family. However, the one thing that’s really crazy is how God is continuing to bring us closer together. I don’t know how that’s worked, but it has been truly amazing. Please continue to pray for the Walls family as we fight and pray through this time. Only God can get us through this and that’s all we can expect.

We are 32 days away from the arrival of Harry Ernest Walls, V. I will say that I’m super excited! I was definitely excited about my 2 girls, but there’s a completely different feeling knowing that this is my boy. Continue to pray for my wife as she has not enjoyed being THIS pregnant in THIS heat. I don’t envy her, but I definitely applaud her. She’s amazing!!!

We started tracking work on 3 songs for the new CD. They are going to sound absolutely great. I’m having so much fun with this whole thing. I still can’t believe that it’s true right now. On the musical front, I’m going to try out for iSing St. Louis again this year. Who knows what will happen…

This summer I lost one of my good friends, Rob Cornwell. This earth will never be the same without him walking on it. I was given a HUGE honor in planning his memorial service. We proceeded to pack out the Pillsbury Chapel at Missouri Baptist to honor one of God’s great men. You are TRULY missed, bro!

I’m thankful for relationships. It seems as if some things are starting to take some shape in the life of some friendships we have. I’ll keep you posted on that. In a related note, I went to the first Bible study with some friends in a REALLY long time. It was cool and weird all at the same time. I don’t know how to process it yet.

I’m SURE that there’s something I’m missing because as I said before, there’s SO much going on and so much I haven’t written about. I am getting back into my own schedule now that the girls started back into homeschooling. That means I should get back to writing more regularly. I was starting to think that I was only writing these things and then reading myself so I could say someone did. But I’ve run into at least 4 people in the past couple weeks that I didn’t know that have read this blog so that must mean that other people are checking this out. That makes me happy and I’ll keep doing it. Have a great Monday.