I can’t believe that I’m sitting here with so little time left on my school calendar! How time flies when you’re actually doing something! Anyway, I haven’t written anything in a while and I would like to be able to sit down and actually write something substancial in the near future. Look out for something real this week. I plan to write a good, long something. Promise…
So, it’s Spring Break. You would think I’d be more emphatic about that, but that’s all I got. This has been such a trying time for me lately that I don’t know which way is up. All I’ve wanted to do is sleep. I haven’t quite accomplished that, though. However, something cool is happening as the week is taking shape. My wife told me that I should take some time and download my brain. A lot has been going on with all the transition and the church stuff and trying to graduate and I haven’t had much time to think. So her suggestion to me was to start to journal. Now, I’ve tried this before, and it never really went anywhere. But for whateve reason, this is really taking off! I am learning so much about myself. I guess I should have started this a long time ago. This has been so refreshing for me to write out what’s in my heart and mind. It’s quite different than songwriting. Writing in a journal is more like stream of consciousness for me. Some of my friends would say that stream of conscious for me could be bad and noncomprehensible. Anyway…
I think I’m writing about this because God is showing me things about myself that have always been there but I’ve hidden from because I didn’t let it out. Writing makes me come face to face with my heart, my sin, my thoughts, everything! I have loved what I’ve learned about myself and how I relate to the people around me. I will keep you posted on what I find out about myself at the end of the week. Right now, I’m gonna enjoy myself with some World Baseball Classic…
So, I was just listening to some throwback music as I study for my Man & Sin test and get ready for my 9:30 World Citizen class. I ran across a song that was my favorite a while back and I remember why. I won’t try to explain it too much because I don’t want to take away from the words of this song. You may be feeling this way right now and this song will touch a part of you that needed to be touched by the Father. I know that I’ve been all over the place in my own mind and to hear this song right now was so good for my soul. So let the words of the song ‘Prone to Wander’ by Chris Rice minister to you this morning.
On the surface not a ripple
Undercurrent wages war
Quiet in the sanctuary
Sin is crouching at my doorHow can I be so prone to wander
So prone to leave You
So prone to die
And how can You be so full of mercy
You race to meet me and bring me back to lifeI wake to find my soul in fragments
Given to a thousand loves
But only One will have no rival
Hangs to heal me, spills His bloodHow can I be so prone to wander
So prone to leave You
So prone to die
And how can You be so full of mercy
You race to meet me and bring me back to lifeCurse-reversing Day of Jesus
When you finally seize my soul
Freedom from myself will be the
Sweetest rest I’ve ever knownHow can I be so prone to wander
So prone to leave You
So prone to die
And how can You be so full of mercy
You race to meet me and bring my back to life
