So, generally I’m one to keep my personal things pretty clear from other people’s thoughts because I feel like other people have other things to deal with to have to think about my problems and issues. For whatever reason I’ve decided that I’m throwing that theory out the window at least for today.

My heart is truly overwhelmed and I don’t know what to do with myself right now. I’m really tired and am not enjoying my life. That is just a weird feeling for me because I have so much going on. Maybe that’s the problem with me right now. I have a lot going on and I don’t know where to start. My usual approach to dealing with things has turned into NOT dealing with things and watching them fall.

I feel really lonely right now. I don’t feel like I have anyone that I am ‘experiencing’ life with right now. My life is mostly a bunch of due dates and meetings and I feel as if I’m running in circles.  I don’t know how else to explain these feelings, but I know that they are there. I know that there are people that love me, and there are people that I love, but I am struggling with connection. I don’t have anyone really that I feel is really in my life moving me forward. As a result, even though I have people all around me that I interact with, I feel like I’m out here all alone.

I could go on forever about lots of stuff, but I just want to ask all of you for prayer because I really need it because I don’t know right from left right now. I am not a big fan of facing the day when it comes and would much rather just sleep than get anything accomplished. I don’t feel like I have anything to offer and so I’d much rather stay to myself.

Pray that I can hold on to what I know to be true. Pray that I let the Father in and work in my heart because it’s really broken right now…

Tags: prayer, Trust